Catholic school

From what my parents have told me.. When you have a child, your whole view on the world changes and all you want is the best for that child. If I really think about it I can understand where they’re coming from. You just never want that baby to grow up. As a parent u have to decide between the repulsive lifestyle of public school, or the preppy stuck up kids of the catholic school system. My parents chose to send me to catholic school..and I’ve been there ever since.

A person who doesn’t know much about catholic school might think it’s one of the best choices to keep your kid in a good environment. And don’t get me wrong..it is a little better than having your kid exposed to the public school lifestyle. But at the same time, its not all its cracked up to be.. Like I said before..catholic school is filled with preppy stuck up kids who aren’t the best influences for your kids. Majority of the families at the school are rich and their kids tend to look down on the average middle class working families. It isn’t exactly fair, but I guess that’s something that can’t really be changed. Aside from being stuck up, the kids at the schools still make the bad choices parents tried to avoid no matter how sheltered they were from the negative things in the world.

When you think of catholic school..I’m sure the last thing that you think of is money. To the school staff, money is the first thing that comes to mind. You would think that because the school is religious that they would have sympathy and be understanding of the families that have to struggle to keep their kids in the school..But they aren’t concerned of your financial situation at all. Since I have been in catholic school, money is the number one issue.

Even though I disagree with the catholic school system..I will say that academically wise.. they are great schools. Kids may not like it because the schools tend to be more demanding with their grades. But in the long run..being forced to learn certain things probably will come in handy.

Best friends become strangers

Have you ever known someone who you swore was your best friend? Someone you told everything to..and did everything with? I think we all have at some point. There’s something about a best friend that is like no other relationship.. Think about it, you can tell this person your deepest darkest secrets..do things the both of you enjoy..not be self conscious..and just be there for each other in general. A best friend is sort of like a blessing.

But I’ve learned the hard way that sometimes, the person you may think is your best friend…really wasn’t even your true friend to begin with. The people you trust the most might actually be the ones to hurt you the most. In my case.. the person I really believed to be my best friend wasn’t such a good friend after all.. I was always the one taking the blame for things..Whenever a new lover came into her life, I was the one being pushed aside.. And I was constantly put into bad situations. I guess you could say it wasn’t the healthiest friendship. And it took me awhile to even see it.

If I’ve learned one thing..it’s that you can’t trust anyone. The only true people you can trust are your parents and maybe if your lucky..you’ll have that one person in your life who is your true best friend..the first person you go to when something is wrong..your ride or die. Most people don’t even find that one person they can really trust and depend on, so if you think you’ve found that person..hold on to them cause nowadays.. you can rarely trust people.

Am I the only person who notices that people today are so quick to call someone their “best friend”? It’s almost as if the word has lost its meaning.. you aren’t supposed to have five different best friends.. those are called good friends. A best friend, is the one person who knows everything about you…it’s the person who would drop everything to help you out..it’s the person who would put you first over a silly crush..or remember your birthday.. a best friend is the person who actually cares about you. As Nas once said, “A thug changes, and love changes, and best friends become strangers.” I think this quote pretty much says it all.. well I now know, who my real best friend is. And I honestly..wouldn’t trade him for the world <3

If heaven was a mile away..

In the words of the rapper Nas, “If Heaven was a mile away, And you could ride by the gates, Would you try to run inside when it opens, would you try to die today?” In the world we live in today, do people really even believe in heaven anymore? Or is it just a silly story told centuries ago to societies in order for them to stay civilized? Whenever I turn on the news, all I can see is negativity. Things like murders, death, drugs, all of that stuff.. If people really know as much as they say about God, why don’t they live a life they know God would want them to? Nowadays people do the worst things before even thinking about the consequences or who they’re hurting.. we’ve all done it. I’ll even admit to me doing it. But why can’t we ask ourselves one question..why do we do it? I’m a firm believer that no one is perfect, and everyone makes their mistakes.. but after the mistakes are all done..was it really worth it? For those of us who believe in a God, from whatever religion it may be.. maybe we should think about what God would say. Because if the world were to end today.. the majority of people would feel a lot of regret for the things they did throughout their lives. So what would you do if heaven was a mile away?

 

Jersey shore ? I don’t think so

This isn’t bashing anybody who watches or likes the show, it’s just my opinion on it. If you don’t like it, don’t read it (:

We’ve all seen it..we’ve all heard of it. It’s probably one of the number one shows out right now and I can’t seem to understand why. Jersey Shore has to be one of the most scripted, ridiculous shows to ever air on television. From a New Yorkers point of view, I personally think it is a horrible representation for people who are actually from New Jersey and New York. Maybe I’m the only one who doesn’t give a shit about the show, but it drives me insane. Not only do I hate the show..but I hate how the people who know NOTHING about New York and Jersey try to act like they know it all simply because they watch the show.

Since Jersey Shore’s first season, new shows have been aired about New Jersey as well. Shows like, The Real Housewives of New Jersey, Jerseylicious, and Jersey Couture. You don’t even need to watch these shows to know that they are filled with drama and stereotypical characters. Because of shows like this, people from other states seem to believe that New Yorkers and Jerseyans have bad attitudes, wear tons of makeup, have big hair, and wear slutty tacky clothes. I disagree. Just because people from New York don’t take shit from people doesn’t mean we have bad attitudes.. and just because the people on the Jersey Shore act like complete ignorant assholes, doesn’t mean we all do. I personally think the show has given New Yorkers a bad reputation that can also be somewhat described as “trashy.” To some people, I guess it may be entertaining, but I don’t find it at all appealing. It actually disgusts me to be perfectly honest.

How well do we love ourselves?

In a world where it seems everyone is materialistic.. we sort of lose touch with our true selves. And don’t act like you don’t see it.. 99% of all people do things, that don’t reflect who they really are. My boyfriend once told me, that everything a guy does is for a girl. Whether he has a girlfriend or not, it’s just to impress a girl. He goes to the gym, to impress a girl.. he gets a haircut, to impress a girl.. gets a nice car, to impress a girl..well you get the picture. Girls on the other hand do it for other girls. Think about it, everything with girls becomes a competition. Who wore the outfit better? Whos hair looks the best? Who has the hottest boyfriend? Who is most popular? Who has more money? It’s a constant thing… So why do we as humans do all these things to impress other people? To me, it doesn’t make any sense. As women, society tells us that we have to dress a certain way, look a certain way, and act a certain way to be considered “beautiful” I disagree… Why can’t we look the way we do, accept it, and love it? If someone doesn’t like something about you, say I don’t give a fuck..this is me.. take it or leave it. And if you really don’t like something about yourself, then do something to change it. We shouldn’t sit around feeling sorry for ourselves because “we’re fat” or because “we have no money” or because we “don’t fit in” Change it, or accept it. It’s your choice. Basically what I’m trying to say is.. “we buy things we don’t need, with money we don’t have.. to impress people we don’t like” By far one of my favorite quotes by Dave Ramsey. So it all comes down to… How well do we love ourselves?

New York, how i miss you </3

So as I’m sitting here in a cooped up apartment doing absolutely nothing with my time. I decided to blog. As of right now, it’s raining and windy in the “Sunshine State” How lovely. It’s fall now right? Well, here you would never be able to tell.. you know since its about 90 degrees all year round. You barely see the change of season and when you do, just when you start to enjoy it, it goes right back to hot. Ever since I was little, New York has always been the best place to me.  It’s what I would call home. You know you really belong somewhere when it actually pains you to leave that place. And shit, does it pain me to leave the big apple. The people, the music, the environment, the buildings, the food, everything about it. I don’t see how anyone could hate it. It’s like a whole other world in that small city. To see the leaves changing colors on the trees and soon falling and actually FEELING the change in season, kinda gives me a sense of joy. Most people feel at ease and relaxed looking at palm trees… not me. They make me sick actually. But hey, I guess thats just me right?

Divorce is not healthy

Well, my parents recently got divorced and still, things aren’t what people would call “normal”.  Fights still go on between the both of them, only now it’s just over the dumbest things.  Like who do I ask for money?  I can’t ask my mom because she flips out on me to ask my dad…but then if I ask him, he tells me to ask her. So at what point does a family divorce get any better? Because I sure as hell don’t see it coming anytime soon. Sure, the both of them may look happier..but it’s like every time they’re less than a foot away from each other, you can almost cut the tension with a knife.. Complete total bullshit. And at what point was it okay to take ALL your anger out on me? really? Sometimes I just can’t even deal with it. smfh. whateverr.

Live, laugh, eat. ;]

Food. We all love it and lust it, yet find it to be our worst enemies. I say fuck it, for a whole week, gather your sweets and let’s feast.